And I am already bored.
It isn't that I'm ready to jump back into my classroom as much as it is not having the routine and social contact I had on a daily basis. Trust me, I am enjoying not grading papers and dealing with 30+ different hormonally charged attitudes for the day. What I do miss though is the time spent with friends and yes, there are a few of those "kids" that I enjoyed having around.
The good news is that I am going to begin my fifth year at school. Not only do I have tenure, but I will have been working for five years at a Title I school. This is very significant because it will help me get 17K of my school debt erased.
When I was married, my husband made a big point that he was going to "help me" with this debt. Had we stayed married, this would in fact be true. But I'm divorced now and the debt is mine. No added help from Mr. Wonderful, whom I don't believe ever expected to be "helpful."
It is all part of that unfinished business with myself that I mentioned before. I honestly don't want his help.
In other news, I had a few guys express interest on eHarmony, but I've not really stumbled on anyone all that interested. I got a feeling there are a lot of delusional men out there that want Cinderella. I do know I'm not going to have much success until I do something about my size. I don't think of myself as "fat" yet pictures don't lie nor do scales. Men want accepted with there bulging bellies and half shaved beards, but a woman is suppose to be trim and athletic.
Men are about the looks first and foremost. They claim they want more, but what they want is sex. I'm not going to sell out on being who I am now, but I know in my heart I do need to do more for my health. It has been on my mind a lot as I swallow down 4 pills a morning and snort a steroid spray. Something has to give or I may not be around to see 60.
I accused my ex-husband of failing to be there "for better or for worse," the challenge now is, will I be there for myself and do what I need to do to live a healthier lifestyle?
More later.
It isn't that I'm ready to jump back into my classroom as much as it is not having the routine and social contact I had on a daily basis. Trust me, I am enjoying not grading papers and dealing with 30+ different hormonally charged attitudes for the day. What I do miss though is the time spent with friends and yes, there are a few of those "kids" that I enjoyed having around.
The good news is that I am going to begin my fifth year at school. Not only do I have tenure, but I will have been working for five years at a Title I school. This is very significant because it will help me get 17K of my school debt erased.
When I was married, my husband made a big point that he was going to "help me" with this debt. Had we stayed married, this would in fact be true. But I'm divorced now and the debt is mine. No added help from Mr. Wonderful, whom I don't believe ever expected to be "helpful."
It is all part of that unfinished business with myself that I mentioned before. I honestly don't want his help.
In other news, I had a few guys express interest on eHarmony, but I've not really stumbled on anyone all that interested. I got a feeling there are a lot of delusional men out there that want Cinderella. I do know I'm not going to have much success until I do something about my size. I don't think of myself as "fat" yet pictures don't lie nor do scales. Men want accepted with there bulging bellies and half shaved beards, but a woman is suppose to be trim and athletic.
Men are about the looks first and foremost. They claim they want more, but what they want is sex. I'm not going to sell out on being who I am now, but I know in my heart I do need to do more for my health. It has been on my mind a lot as I swallow down 4 pills a morning and snort a steroid spray. Something has to give or I may not be around to see 60.
I accused my ex-husband of failing to be there "for better or for worse," the challenge now is, will I be there for myself and do what I need to do to live a healthier lifestyle?
More later.
