Most my posts are probably not that uplifting. After all its easy to sink into things like what my husband did and how it upset me, etc. But I hope this post won't be that way.
You see, yesterday was my birthday. I'm not big on telling people about it, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised when people don't wish me happy birthday, but I got to say, I have been overwhelmed this year. You see, these social network sites publish on your friend's feed facts like your birthday. So yesterday, all day, my phone rang and rang to announce that I had a new posting. Every one was a well wish for a happy birthday. I couldn't get over it.
I didn't need a party, or a fancy cake, though my daughter made me a very special dessert. I didn't even need presents because at my age, there really isn't much that I want that I couldn't get for myself. What I needed was to be thought of.
My husband was in email with me at least 4 times yesterday about this and that. Each time trying to drag me into some conversation about his problems. Each time I avoided it and stuck to the facts of what he was requesting. Not once did he say happy birthday. 23 years of marriage, and you think he would have remembered that yesterday was my birthday. Hell even I said happy birthday too him back in May! So there you have my level of rating in his eyes. He is so consumed with his own issues that he couldn't take a few minutes out to wish me a happy birthday.
The best part was, I didn't need it. It was a bit depressing at first, but then that dang phone of mine kept beeping. How could I possibly be sad when so many took the time to just say, "happy birthday."
The power of words should never be overlooked, nor should the effort, no matter how small.
I had a great day that I won't soon forget.
As for my husband, he will be an "ex" soon enough. He just makes it easier and easier to do what I have to do.
Tomorrow I start my 12-step group and then divorce small group on Thursday. I'm getting there. It's just a matter of the right time and having the money. It just won't be soon enough now for me. I want my freedom. I may never want another man, but I do want my freedom to find out if there is another man that would be good to me as well as for me. What ever was good in our marriage, is gone now. He is a miserable person who's past deeds are crashing in on him now. The moral of the story is you can not avoid your problems. Face them, or eventually they will run you over.
"can't go over it,
can't go under it,
can't go around it,
gotta go through it."
- pre-school rap that I never understood the full meaning of until this summer.
Happy Birthday to ME! May the second half of my life be full of the excitement and joy that I deserve for myself and my kids!
You see, yesterday was my birthday. I'm not big on telling people about it, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised when people don't wish me happy birthday, but I got to say, I have been overwhelmed this year. You see, these social network sites publish on your friend's feed facts like your birthday. So yesterday, all day, my phone rang and rang to announce that I had a new posting. Every one was a well wish for a happy birthday. I couldn't get over it.
I didn't need a party, or a fancy cake, though my daughter made me a very special dessert. I didn't even need presents because at my age, there really isn't much that I want that I couldn't get for myself. What I needed was to be thought of.
My husband was in email with me at least 4 times yesterday about this and that. Each time trying to drag me into some conversation about his problems. Each time I avoided it and stuck to the facts of what he was requesting. Not once did he say happy birthday. 23 years of marriage, and you think he would have remembered that yesterday was my birthday. Hell even I said happy birthday too him back in May! So there you have my level of rating in his eyes. He is so consumed with his own issues that he couldn't take a few minutes out to wish me a happy birthday.
The best part was, I didn't need it. It was a bit depressing at first, but then that dang phone of mine kept beeping. How could I possibly be sad when so many took the time to just say, "happy birthday."
The power of words should never be overlooked, nor should the effort, no matter how small.
I had a great day that I won't soon forget.
As for my husband, he will be an "ex" soon enough. He just makes it easier and easier to do what I have to do.
Tomorrow I start my 12-step group and then divorce small group on Thursday. I'm getting there. It's just a matter of the right time and having the money. It just won't be soon enough now for me. I want my freedom. I may never want another man, but I do want my freedom to find out if there is another man that would be good to me as well as for me. What ever was good in our marriage, is gone now. He is a miserable person who's past deeds are crashing in on him now. The moral of the story is you can not avoid your problems. Face them, or eventually they will run you over.
"can't go over it,
can't go under it,
can't go around it,
gotta go through it."
- pre-school rap that I never understood the full meaning of until this summer.
Happy Birthday to ME! May the second half of my life be full of the excitement and joy that I deserve for myself and my kids!
