Well the not so significant other has come home tonight.
We spoke in short emails while he was still at work, and he seemed willing to talk in short sessions. So we will try tomorrow. I have to remember to keep my frustration level down and be as positive as possible. It does no good right now to try and come at him in anger. We have to work together for the greater good of the family even if we don't stay together as man and wife.
On that thought, I'm investigating "Celebrate Recovery" as an option for a face to face support group. I need that in my life right now. Turns out there is a group that meets right around the corner from where I live. They also meet on Monday nights, so that would make my Sunday's less stressful not to mention go easier on my gasoline. I really need to step out and find help to deal with these issues.
I don't want to give up on the idea of finding genuine love in my life, or at least a mutually satisfactory relationship with a man that doesn't require wearing armor. To quote Taylor Swift, "I didn't think being in love meant having to fight for the upper hand."
I had an enjoyable time with my daughter tonight too. We played our favorite online game with our guild mates and advanced her character further in the story. She is so relaxed with it and enjoying the game with real people. It was fun to just think about nothing else, laugh and joke and have a really pleasant time. I never even got that much enjoyment with her brother when he played. She will be spending time with her dad tomorrow, so it was nice to get to spend time with her tonight. It will be a good opportunity to get some grading done tomorrow while she is gone with him. My son is on a trip as well this weekend, so it should be fairly quiet and stress free.
I'm looking forward to Sunday as well. I so enjoy going to bible class and meeting new people. It helped to know my friend from school, but honestly, I feel comfortable with anyone there.
So tonight was a good night. I was stressed a bit about my husband coming home, but so far I'm doing okay.
One day/hour at a time.
We spoke in short emails while he was still at work, and he seemed willing to talk in short sessions. So we will try tomorrow. I have to remember to keep my frustration level down and be as positive as possible. It does no good right now to try and come at him in anger. We have to work together for the greater good of the family even if we don't stay together as man and wife.
On that thought, I'm investigating "Celebrate Recovery" as an option for a face to face support group. I need that in my life right now. Turns out there is a group that meets right around the corner from where I live. They also meet on Monday nights, so that would make my Sunday's less stressful not to mention go easier on my gasoline. I really need to step out and find help to deal with these issues.
I don't want to give up on the idea of finding genuine love in my life, or at least a mutually satisfactory relationship with a man that doesn't require wearing armor. To quote Taylor Swift, "I didn't think being in love meant having to fight for the upper hand."
I had an enjoyable time with my daughter tonight too. We played our favorite online game with our guild mates and advanced her character further in the story. She is so relaxed with it and enjoying the game with real people. It was fun to just think about nothing else, laugh and joke and have a really pleasant time. I never even got that much enjoyment with her brother when he played. She will be spending time with her dad tomorrow, so it was nice to get to spend time with her tonight. It will be a good opportunity to get some grading done tomorrow while she is gone with him. My son is on a trip as well this weekend, so it should be fairly quiet and stress free.
I'm looking forward to Sunday as well. I so enjoy going to bible class and meeting new people. It helped to know my friend from school, but honestly, I feel comfortable with anyone there.
So tonight was a good night. I was stressed a bit about my husband coming home, but so far I'm doing okay.
One day/hour at a time.
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