This will be a short entry, but today was in fact a good day.

I started going back to church thanks to a friend at school. She teaches the adult bible class there and I went for the first time today. I asked my dearest friend who moved to this area with us 4 years ago to come to worship service and she enjoyed herself very much as well. We not only liked the people we were with, they made us feel welcome and let us join them for lunch.

I can't express how much this meant to me today to feel welcomed and accepted again. I have missed the experience of being with those that do their part to be more to others. The only way to look outward is to stop looking inward. I was depressed last night for a short time, but it took a few minutes with friends to make the hurt go away. Today, I laughed and was relaxed and enjoyed my time with these new additions to my life.

The only down side, is I'm still catching myself looking for available men as if that is going to make a difference for me. Once again, I'm trying to appease the relationship addict in me by finding a new relationship to call my own and feel fulfilled. I'm not sober yet, but at least I'm aware of what I'm doing and not giving in to the temptation to panic and be depressed for being alone. I'm not alone.

I have my wonderful kids and I have some new friends that have no problem inviting me to join them for anything. The next event seems to be a dinner theater on the 29th. I should go. I will ask for more details. I know it will be an expense that I probably shouldn't make right now, but this is important. Being with people, and enjoying life right now is very important.

So today was a good day and I am grateful and blessed for it.