Tomorrow is Easter.
I plan to have a phenomenal holiday. This whole spring break has been wonderful. I have been relaxed and just enjoyed the time to myself. I didn't need to have a trip. I didn't need much of anything. I just enjoyed being home.
I took my kids out to brunch. I told them how proud I was of both of them. They truly have risen up to the challenge and have been a huge help. As horrible as it was to be "dumped," my kids make me feel like everything is normal. In truth, I don't see myself as much as being dumped as I see my husband of just running off. My kids and I ARE the family and for now at least, we are happier and better off.
That's sad to say, but it is the truth.
So why have I titled this "the reason for the season" Easter isn't about death, but about new life. The chance to begin again. That makes this Easter even more meaningful to me. It is the chance for the three of us to start anew.
My son and I still have trouble fully communicating, but we at least quit and step away now and come back with a more loving attitude. We try to understand the other. He really is a more perfect version of his father and I. My daughter was a bit lost tonight. She walked a bit and then came in and we did our nails and played some more of our game. She misses him so much, but even she seems happier without the stress.
It comes down to the fact that HE was the stress. With him gone we all do better. Brother and sister are more loving too each other, to me and we work as a team. This never happened with their father around. One has to think the reason was, their father!
So yes he was unhappy. He did his best to point the blame at me, but with him gone, we all are happier, so I have to think, it was never about me or the kids. He was the unhappy one, and he made the rest of us miserable.
Tomorrow we will celebrate Easter together for breakfast at church, then my son will go help with and Easter egg hunt and worship at the church he likes. My daughter and my best friend will stay at the same church for Bible study and worship. Then home for ham and biscuits and homemade applesauce. I already have their Easter baskets made up to set at the table first thing in the morning.
Yes, it will be a good Easter and the first unspoiled holiday of the year.
A season marked with new hope for a new future.
I plan to have a phenomenal holiday. This whole spring break has been wonderful. I have been relaxed and just enjoyed the time to myself. I didn't need to have a trip. I didn't need much of anything. I just enjoyed being home.
I took my kids out to brunch. I told them how proud I was of both of them. They truly have risen up to the challenge and have been a huge help. As horrible as it was to be "dumped," my kids make me feel like everything is normal. In truth, I don't see myself as much as being dumped as I see my husband of just running off. My kids and I ARE the family and for now at least, we are happier and better off.
That's sad to say, but it is the truth.
So why have I titled this "the reason for the season" Easter isn't about death, but about new life. The chance to begin again. That makes this Easter even more meaningful to me. It is the chance for the three of us to start anew.
My son and I still have trouble fully communicating, but we at least quit and step away now and come back with a more loving attitude. We try to understand the other. He really is a more perfect version of his father and I. My daughter was a bit lost tonight. She walked a bit and then came in and we did our nails and played some more of our game. She misses him so much, but even she seems happier without the stress.
It comes down to the fact that HE was the stress. With him gone we all do better. Brother and sister are more loving too each other, to me and we work as a team. This never happened with their father around. One has to think the reason was, their father!
So yes he was unhappy. He did his best to point the blame at me, but with him gone, we all are happier, so I have to think, it was never about me or the kids. He was the unhappy one, and he made the rest of us miserable.
Tomorrow we will celebrate Easter together for breakfast at church, then my son will go help with and Easter egg hunt and worship at the church he likes. My daughter and my best friend will stay at the same church for Bible study and worship. Then home for ham and biscuits and homemade applesauce. I already have their Easter baskets made up to set at the table first thing in the morning.
Yes, it will be a good Easter and the first unspoiled holiday of the year.
A season marked with new hope for a new future.
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