Tonight I set out on a new course.
I've grieved and grown fat and lazy. The signed papers will be in my hands soon, and then it will be in the hands of the courts. Career-wise I am on a fast track upward. I am well liked by my administration, and have a thousand and one ideas that I know I can never do, but I'm going to try anyway. Now, to get my physical body in line with my brain.
I have begun "Operation Screw U _____" (The name is left blank on purpose, but I know what goes in there.) I started back working out three nights a week, and have begun my diet program. My goal is to weight at a maximum 170 lbs. I would LOVE to weigh 155 lbs. That would be my dream size. I will then throw away all my clothes and start over! :)
Well, maybe not that severe, but I do plan to do some serious re-arranging of priorities. I need my metabolism back up, I need my energy, and I need to stop thinking about my soon to be ex-husband with a focus that maybe I could find some one else that might actually appreciate me.
I thought I had that in this last relationship, but I did not, so if I do feel that pull again, I know I need to be patient and see how it plays out and if "Mr. Wonderful" still thinks I am after 1 year. Right now, I'm very much in the "I don't trust or even like men very much" phase. I like the idea of dating and maybe finding someone nice, but I have to be good with me, and right now, I have a lot of body fat to get rid of.
I just hope Grandma Stephen's genetics will let me!
In the meantime, here is my newest theme song. I plan to play it at least once or twice a day to remind me to "Defy Mediocrity."
I've grieved and grown fat and lazy. The signed papers will be in my hands soon, and then it will be in the hands of the courts. Career-wise I am on a fast track upward. I am well liked by my administration, and have a thousand and one ideas that I know I can never do, but I'm going to try anyway. Now, to get my physical body in line with my brain.
I have begun "Operation Screw U _____" (The name is left blank on purpose, but I know what goes in there.) I started back working out three nights a week, and have begun my diet program. My goal is to weight at a maximum 170 lbs. I would LOVE to weigh 155 lbs. That would be my dream size. I will then throw away all my clothes and start over! :)
Well, maybe not that severe, but I do plan to do some serious re-arranging of priorities. I need my metabolism back up, I need my energy, and I need to stop thinking about my soon to be ex-husband with a focus that maybe I could find some one else that might actually appreciate me.
I thought I had that in this last relationship, but I did not, so if I do feel that pull again, I know I need to be patient and see how it plays out and if "Mr. Wonderful" still thinks I am after 1 year. Right now, I'm very much in the "I don't trust or even like men very much" phase. I like the idea of dating and maybe finding someone nice, but I have to be good with me, and right now, I have a lot of body fat to get rid of.
I just hope Grandma Stephen's genetics will let me!
In the meantime, here is my newest theme song. I plan to play it at least once or twice a day to remind me to "Defy Mediocrity."
