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What a wild couple of weeks I have had.  Make it a couple of months.

It started in March when I got a red flag on my blood pressure.  It was through the roof.  So I went to my doctor who got it under control with, well we will call it "pill 1."

In the process of talking with my doctor, I told her how I can hardly breath.  So I got sent to Doctor 2 who has since brought me under his care and got me started on "pill 2." Later this week we also start shots, but for now, we will stick with just "pill 2."

Meanwhile, back at doctor #1, an irregularly low level came back from my thyroid.  I guess the old girl decided to just stop producing what it was suppose to produce.  Prescription for "pill 3" was called in and so now my morning begins with a cocktail of pills 1-3, a steroid nose spray, and just for fun, if my chest feels tight, I got this lovely inhaler!

So after a few short months of all this silliness, I am happy to report that steam is no longer pouring from my ears from my high blood pressure.  I am sleeping through the night and as long as I'm on pill #2 and the steroid spray, I seem to have stopped snoring so much and waking up rested.  The most surprising news is that "pill #3" really has seemed to be doing something for me.  For the few short days I have been on it, I have started to get my old energy back to do things.  I went the entire weekend without resorting to a nap, and tonight was one of the first times that I didn't immediately collapse in my chair..though I think I may have snored a little during the news.

So after all this retuning of my physiology, will this make me a bit more sane?  I hope not. :)

I'm going to pursue eHarmony again.  See if maybe over the summer I might meet someone nice for an occasional dinner or movie.  I need real people and real friends.  I'm not getting it from my usual online sources.  I guess, I'm just getting to an age where those "younguns" don't really want to hang out with an old person.  Actually, I think it is more, that this "oldun" has different views on what a friend is, and honestly what we see as friends online are just acquaintances.  There is no effort or sacrifice.  Not to say there aren't real relationships, but those are also real in the non digital world.

To quote one of those "younguns,"  "Why don't you go out and find people that you can game with if you want people to play with you?"

So, I guess that is what I'm going to do.  I don't think I will find too many 50 somethings that do what I do.  We are rare and most are married.  It may be a hobby I have to eventually do with out in lieu of something more traditional.

I don't know.  I know I feel a bit better.  I know I have unfinished business with myself.

I don't know if  "moving on" is going to be possible until that business is taken care of.
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